Am I a visitor or a member?

Yesterday, Sunday, as usual, I went to my home church. A funny thought came out in my mind. Was just thinking am I a visitor of my church in Labuan or am I a member?

Everytime, when I go to church, I will fellowship around as what usual Christian does, but, at the end, I am just all alone. Just like my youth advisor, though I went to Youth for only two or three years out of my five years youth, I am not as close with her as my relationship with the other brothers and sisters in Perth and Miri. I just feel like I am all alone in this church. With lots of aunties and uncles looking at how I have grown from a little girl to who I am today, but my relationship with them is like just a 'touch-and-go' relationship. It's so different things here in Labuan compared to my church in other places. I enjoyed all the fellowship I have over there and enjoy serving the Lord together in different ministries. I have brother Kenin and sister Stella to grow together. Though we stumble at times, but we are there to encourage each other in our walk with Christ. But here in Labuan, I just don't enjoy the fellowship, or can be said I don't fellowship in Labuan. Some of the people here are so hypocrite and I just feel like escaping from church! But I know I can't coz that's my home church, my own Anglican church and that's the place where Christian gathers together and fellowship. But... but... I just don't want to fellowship in such a place and all I feel is lazy or so called not-in-the-mood to serve.

At the time when I just feel not going to church after this week, the sermon presented by Pastor Soo Jean entitled "Finishing well" reminds me of my walk with Christ. I should not have just given up in the middle of the walk, but continue with perseverance for God and be strong in grace. After reading the Purpose Driven Life written by Rick Warren also reminds me of how important for every Christans to get involved in the local church.

Below are a few passages from the bible that I found encouraging:
'You are members of God's very own family, citizens of God's country, and you belong in God's household with every other Christian.' Ephesians 2:19b

'You can develop a healthy, robust community that lives right with God and enjoy its results only if you do the hard work of getting along with each other, treating each other with dignity and honor' James 3:18

But from what I have read from the book, I don't find it much applicable in my church. Like for example, a church family will help keep you from backsliding. Yea, it applies only when Sabrina was in Labuan. Last year, out of 12 weeks, I guess I just went to church for 3 or 4 times, but no one cares. No one keep accountability of me for being there in church, just like what I have done to keep accountability of the other cell members to church every week. Not here in Labuan, no one cares whether you are there or not. I know it's not about you and the people around, is all about you and God, but I just don't feel like being appreciated here.

I don't experience real fellowship in Labuan like what Rick Warren has written in his book.
In real fellowship, people experience authenticity. I never have a heart-to-heart talk with the people there, neither do they share their hurts, reveal their feelings, confess their failures, disclose their doubts....Neither do I experience mutuality.

10 more Sundays to go. God, please grant me strength to pull through this 10 weeks.

Tagged

Part 1: On the Outside
Name : Sheron
Date of Birth : 21 February 1987 - turning 21 next year.. So, you guys know what to do??
Current Status : in a relationship
Eye Colour : black
Hair Colour : black & some dark red
Righty or Lefty : Righty
Zodiac Sign : pisces

Part 2: On the Inside
Your Heritage : Chinese
Your Fear : God, loneliness, failure
Your Weakness : counselling, no motivation to attend last minute events
Your Perfect Pizza : Little Caesars' dessert pizza

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : Oh no, I'm late again!
Your bedtime : 11pm-12am
Your most missed memory : Form 5 and my study period in Miri

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : both
McDees or Burger King : McDees
Single or Group Dates : Group
Adidas or Nike : Adidas
Lipton Tea or Nestea : Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla : both
Cappucino or Coffee : neither

Part 5: Do You...
Smoke : nope
Curse : not really

Part 6: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol : yes, in social events
Gone to the mall : yea
went to Borders : nope
Been on stage : yes, during the JCLA speech
Eaten sushi : yea, miss Jet's sushi
Dyed your hair : highlighted

Part 7: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game : nope
Changed who you were to fit in : erm.. i think so

Part 8:
Age you're hoping to be married : 26-28

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl
Best Eye colour : blue
Hair colour : black
Short or long hair : definitely short

Part 10: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago : =typing this
1 hour ago : = checking emails
1/2 hours ago : checking facebook
1 month ago : studying in the library I guess..haha
1 year ago : 1st year of uni - 2 sem exam. "studying" in Poly's house

Part 11: Finish The Sentence
I love : eating various food
I feel : lazy
I hate : no one and nothing
I hide : my true self
I miss : all the sweet memories that God has given to me
I need : to go home and study

Rachel's Baptism

I went to Rachel's baptism last Saturday held in South Perth Church of Christ. Looking at the candidates to be baptised, it reminds me of how God has died for our sins. I was so touched with the testimonials that they have shared as well. Oh yea, happy 1 year old Kenin.

Rachel being baptised!

Sylvia, me, Rachel and Izu.

Jonathan's 21st birthday

We celebrated Jono's 21st birthday last Friday. So, I have to skip a week of cell group. Went to Burswood hotel to have buffet dinner which cost me $47.50. But it was worthwhile with the oysters and salmon. I got to eat sio bee as well although it was not as nice as Kuching's or Sibu's, but at least it still satisfy me. The buffet dinner was just like a heaven of food for me. Too much food to be filled in my stomach.



Taken with Yee Enn outside the Burswood Hotel.


The food that we taken that day.


Ice cream that I made. Good brand ice-cream.


The cousins.

Jono, Yee Enn, Me, Sylvia, Jack, Kelvin, Jet, Jet's mum and Jet's sis.

Jono's blowing the birthday cake provided by Burswood.

Cheers with the birthday adult!

Later, we went to the casino and had a look. Then, Jet fetch his mum and sis home, while me, Sylvia, Yee Enn, Kelvin, and Jack went to the Ruby Room clubbing. Had vodka redbull again. I love that drink.

Me and Yee Enn in Ruby Room.

Diana's graduation

Our cell girls that went to Diana's graduation


Cell guys attending Diana's graduation

Lab is not a rush!

Starting the day with a very good mood after calling my mum and ending with a very very bad mood after a just-two-hours lab, although it normally takes three hours.

What ruins my mood?? In our lab today which is on kinetics, a lab which is easier than the organic part, we were asked to group in two and do two different sets of experiments and then, we share the results with the other two person. So, Carmen and I in a group with Zhao Ying and Winny in a group. So, we chose the sets of experiments which we want to do and we did the experiments but Zhao Ying them just did one of the experiment and copied the senior's report for the rest. I can't blame them as well because we have different views in doing lab. All they want is just to copy and finish early while me, on the other hand, want to do it properly and with my own results determine the actual rate constant. I have to admit, with the senior reports are much easier for us to do the lab, which help us in all those calculations stuff. But not the results. If not, why are we in the laboratory?? This situation has been happening throughout the whole semester. I have been trying to tolerate since the beginning of the lab and I hope my tolerance will be good enough to tolerate one more last lab.. God, help me. I need Your strength.

Is my fault also to feel tense and stress when people around me is finishing while I am still doing the experiment. Or else I would still be finishing the whole experiment by myself in the lab rather than just copying the answer that they given me. I guess I have that kind of feeling because I used to finish the earliest in Curtin Miri lab during my foundation. I need to change this. But how?? Next week is already my last chemistry lab. Haiz. Haiz. Haiz.

One more thing is the lab instructor today. I really get pissed off with the lab instructor who keep rushing us to finish the whole thing and cleaning all of the beakers when it was just 4.30 when our lab is supposed to finish at 6! I really hate people rushing me doing things.

Multi~Cultural Week 2007

Last week was multicultural week in Curtin. We had Oceania Day on Monday, America Day on Tuesday, Africa Day on Wednesday, Europe Day on Thursday and Asia Day on Firday. Woo~~!! I wrote calligraphy in the morning, when passing by the stall to my lecture hall. Pasar Malam was chosen to be the closing event for the multicultural week and also one of the highlights. I felt so "Asia" that night. The Pasar Malam was just something like Malaysia's one. But with more varieties, which include, Indonesia, Thailand, Japanese, and not to miss out Malaysia's delicacies. Though some of the food is not as nice as in Malaysia, but still I got some Malaysian food, like Ais Kacang, satay, nasi briyani, teh tarik and lots lots more.


Didgeridoo~

I miss lion dance. This is my first time watching lion dance this year. I don't get to watch this year Chinese New Year because I had to fly from Labuan to Perth on the first day of Chinese New Year. I truly miss home.

After the Pasar Malam, we were off for cell group.

Hardworking people reading bible, except me~

May wrote that when Joanne was talking. Haha~~

Mid-Autumn Festival Dinner

It was Mid-Autumn Festival on 25th September 2007 in chinese calendar. It is a festival for all family members to gather together and chit chat.

Well, being alone in Perth made me miss home especially that day. But I am definitely not celebrating by me myself alone. Went to watch movie in the morning and shopping in the afternoon with my dearly chemical friends. Watched Stardust. It was a good movie. Like it! Then, go shopping in the city. It has been a long long time since I last go to city. I think was 1 month ago??

Had my reunion dinner in Jack's house. My cousin. We cooked some of the dishes and brought there. Asked Jonathan along but he fell asleep at 7!! Must be too tired. So, we had to leave him sleeping at home.


Jet bought the pork ribs and fried the bean sprouts. Oh ya, Jet is a cook. So, we got to have nice food that night.




I cooked that tomato cheese chicken on the top left.


Fish soup cooked by Jet.

6 of us having dinner.

Picture taken with one of Jet's housemate who is a Korean.

Curtin Miri Prom Night 2007

29th September 2007 marked Aileen's 20th birthday and also Curtin Miri Prom Night. This year, Curtin Prom Night was held in Parkcity Everly hotel. Good news for the girls were the buffet meal because I believe the guys would be gentleman enough to serve the girls. But, too bad I was not there. Missing out all the fun, especially when whole bunch of friends were going together. That would be great.











Poly and Victor with their partners.


Grandmaster Sakai, Sian Fa and Poly












Brother Cheng and Poly.


Ah Lung Da Ge, Ming Siang (Ah bian), Poly and Kee Seng who always fight with me. Lol!


Sharon and her partner I think. Guess who is that guy?? Brandon! I hardly recognised him.


Brother Cheng and who is that girl?? Ko Heng Chiak. Lol!! I can't recognise her either.

The singer (Fang Rou) and Poly

My housemate and also my coursemate in Miri, Aileen and Poly.

Ok, it's dancing time!

Aileen and Ian! Not to offend, but Ian, you are fatter now. Maybe it's the power of love??? Hiak hiak..

The Myanmar Prince and his partner.

Ray and Loi.

The whole big family.

*I need to apologise here for posting your pictures without asking permission. But I only feel like posting it in my blog, no other intention. Cheers!*

Buffet Dinner

Last Friday, my cell has thanksgiving where we are asked to share a testimonial. So, we planned to dine out. We chose Sizzler because I wanted to try the buffet. It was gorgeous but it was quite expensive. $19.25 for salad bar buffet, while a meal cost around $20-$30, including the salad bar buffet.

Fisherman wharf which I ordered. Had it half way until I realise I need to take the picture of them!

Peppered Steak ordered by Jayde. Eaten half way as well.

One of the salad bar. Didn't manage to try all the salad because I was just too full. Learnt a lesson: the next time I go to Sizzler, should only order salad bar buffet.

The Prawn Salad that I took and the tortillas chip with avacado cream. Forgot what it's name again. Start with g.

While having our dinner, Jet, Sylvia, Yee Enn and Jack still on the queue rail because they are late. So, we just pass them few chips while they were waiting to pay for the buffet before they come in.

Ice-cream made by Chris.

Ice-cream made by me. Whose one nicer?

Me & May enjoying the desserts.

A table of girls. Jayde, Joanne, Me, Stella and May

Another table of my cellies.

It's thanksgiving turn~!

Me & Rachel after having a sumptuous meal.

Yau Shu & I

Jonathan & I. Oh ya, this brother of mine remind me of Kenin! The way he speaks on the phone sounds similar with Kenin. A brother who always encourage me in the walk of Christ.

My cell leader, Joanne.. Yeah, this semester again. Thank God for that!

Taken with all the girls.